25 Sept 06

25 Sept 06

today is a fucking bad day lar....i didnt expect HER to lie to me lor...i trusted her the most in my whole class....now i doubt i can trust anybody except myself....i can probably still trust her, but not as much as i trust her before...wadeva....went to sch as per normal lar...was actually suppose to go to pasir ris park wit nessa they all de...after recess when walking back to class tt tym natasha told me tt ppl sae i flirt wit boys cos of don they all...but then its lyk they cum ask me for thing de mahx...they ask me for thing then i mux tok to them to tell them when to return me the things etc. wat...so wats their prob...they dun even noe the full story then they wanna tok so much...i ask her hu sae then she lyk sae tt she dunno...jux heard liddat...fuck lar...in the end they sae tml then go...today dun go...so i sae anything lor....then dor dor oso told jesse something bout going out after sch...then i ask her where she going?going to the park ar?then she lyk hesitate liaox then sae she go white sands wit jesse...then i believe her lor...but then i abit suspicious liaox lar...then after sch went to the dnt block there to hand in the project to elmi...while waiting there ah chen they all oso cum....then they tok bout gonig dunno where after sch lor....so i ask ah chen wether they still going to the park anot?then she is sae dunno then faster turn away....i ask her a few tyms then she dun dare reply me liaox...by tis tym i alr roughly noe tt they going liaox lor...only dun wanna tell me...so i dun care...after tt we walked down the stairs then they go out of the sch then i walk to canteen c wether cyn they all still there anot lor...saw jesse then i sae
me : i tot u going to white sands wit dor?
jesse : i tot they going the where?
me : pasir ris park ar?
jesse : ya...
me : so u all going to pasir ris park lar?
jesse : ya...
me : they go le lehx...
jesse : dor dor oso ar?
me : ya....u call her lar...
jesse : ok...bye...
me : bye...
then liddat i confirm tt they lie to me le lor...so nv...i dun care...then i go over cyn they all there...bought things to eat then walked home wit cass n enru...saw clara teo...tok to her awhile...then continued walking to the bus stop....when walking tt tym i msg HER then ask her y lie to me...then after tt en ru left...i told cass bout wat happen lor...showed her the things i wrote during maths lesson...maths tt tym i wrote alot of things bout those ppl hu sae me lar...sitting at the bus stop tt tym she replied my msg using ah tan fone...then tok alot then she keep on saeing sry...then i told her tml go to sch then tok...then she still continue saeing sry...haix...on the bus tt tym cried lor...cos i was thinking bout y wud she lie to me lar..then think so much then buay tahan then cry lor...reach home arnd 3+ 4...then use com until now lor....tts all...bye...

i really cnt take it anymore...i dunno wanna go through this kinda feeling again...although i might be chirpy n cheerful on the surface,u wun noe tt im feeling very hurt deep inside...u dun noe wat its lyk to be lyk me....i dunno y u wud wanna do tis to me...but , i hope u r not doing tis on purpose but u hv no choice...