today was ok luhs. long day. normal stuffs in sch. got back results for physics n SS alr. failed SS by 2 marks. phy oso failed. i feel so lousy. im failing almost every subject. wat's rong man. i seriously need to study n get stuffs into my head man. my brain's been slacking throughout this half of the year. even subjects tt i really studied alot for, im failing them. i just cant seem to get anything into my head. wat's rong wit u lar brain! think so much bout other things then cnt contain stuffs for studying, so stupid. ima stupid ass. buck up lar belynda. better study hard or else u're so gonna get killed.(i sound so stupid talking to myself o.O)

formulae, definitions, facts, pictures, formats, theories and everything i need to rmb, pls get into my head! i dun wanna flunk anymore exams luhs. i promise i'll study hard frm now(i hope) help me ppl! encourage me, influence me! i know, im retarded. but hu cares, i love being retarded n slow n stupid n sotong n i love 3/9! im getting a little crazy alr. shall stop this thing bout my results n all. i pray tt my upcoming results would be gd n tt i'll pass all my subject's overall except probably for A maths. i totally flunked A maths like hardcore lar. U grade, so A maths, i dun expect much.

i feel that i've not done enough. i feel so insecure. i feel so lousy compared to her. i feel very inferior to her. im really afraid, i really am. i've nv felt this way before towards the others. but this time, she gives me a very strong feeling that i might lose u to her. u told me not to think too much when i told u bout this, i tried. but i cant help it. whenever i think bout this, i feel a stinging pain in my heart n it's very strong, like someone stabbed me a thousand times. i feel like crying everytime. sometimes i can control it, but sometimes i just cant. the feeling is way too deep, i cant stop it anymore. even if i were to, it'll take a very very long time. i'll nv find someone else like you ever again, i can gurantee you that. there's none other like u. ily, u know that i do n u know it very well. even when the ocean dries up n the mountains become flat land, i still do. u're nv to be replaced, nv ever. millions of tears i've cried for u. some say it's stupid to cry over this kind of things, i admit, i am stupid when it comes to things concerning u. i've nv felt so strong for someone for my entire life, u're the first n i pray that u'll be the last. i hv so much more to say, but i'll just keep it till i really find the right words to say it out. boy, ilysm<3>