I miss this 2 ppl alot and i love them! Hehe, slpovers after your 'o's JY darling! And cat, Must make it hor! LOVE!

MT and Eng paper 1 today. Both papers in the hall. FREAKING COLD-.- Ok, so, both papers were alright. The crazy thing was that i knew i had freaking lotsa time cause i would complete the papers early(not showing off. but cause that's always the case) so while writing halfway, i'll suddenly blank out and all sorts of thoughts would come into my mind. I'll start having crazy thoughts for about 5 to 10 mins. Then somehow, i'll wake up and start doing the paper. Then i'll start blanking out and thinking then the cycle just keeps repeating itself till i finish my paper then i'll blank out and think all the way till the teacher in charge speaks over the mic. It happened in BOTH the papers.

Gawwwwwwwd, what's coming over me man. Why am i letting it affect me so much? Shit you, imma be fine i swear! ): At least i'll try to be as happy as i can when i'm with friends and i'll try to fake a smile whenever you're arnd. Pls solve it soon can anot? The feeling ain't nice you know? Gahhhhh, k shutup! Back to normal and probably happy stuffs. Wait, there's nth much to post actually-.-

During the last few mins of the Eng paper, i got damn freaking high. HAHAHAHA, cause it's the last paper for the day then we can go home! After the paper, help Ms Tracy Tan awhile then left. Met Zhang and the rest outside staffroom then left sch. Saw Hafiz and Rafiq, called me over. Helped Hafiz text Alyssa Alynna. Chill uhs Hafiz(i know you won't see this but still, chill man!)

Met up with them again then Zhang went home. Me, Sbf, Siuli and Kel(mond) walked to interchange. Crapppppppp, fun! The rest, don't know disappear to where. Waited for Sbf's bus with her after Siuli left. Saw Junkai and co there. She skipped a few bus. Went off first. Dad came to fetch me. I was too lazy to take the bus. Haha, lazy much. Came home had lunch. Com till now.

Watched 'Another Cinderella Story' online. See how bored i was? And i'm too lazy to go revise for the rest of my exams. Plus, i'm having phy test tml. Siannnn~ Keeping myself busy now so that i would stop thinking but i just can't seem to stop. I fucking cried when i was looking through photos and i saw yours. Some more listening to emo(?) song-.- You happy alr lar hor? First person to make me like that. You win lar k you win. Stop torturing me can anot? K, i didn't mean that but i'm just too frustrated, too emo. Don't even know how i'm feeling now.

I think i'm going crazy with all this going through my head whenever i'm not doing smth. Or even when i'm doing smth, i'll just suddenly stone out and start thinking. It's like i can't even stop myself frm not thinking bout it. Even when i'm with friends, i'll suddenly go all emo shit. You big deal meh? Actually, yes :x Are you feeling tired? Cause you've been running through my mind a million gazillion times. Ew, that sounded too mushy uhs? But, heck luhs. How can someone make me so sad but i still want you to stay. I can go all high at one point of time and start laughing like mad or at least i try to go back to that way i once was then i'll realise i can't cause it's too painful and tiring then i'll go back to all the emo shit.

Well, i saw you and heard you. But i can't help but to not look at you. I just don't have the courage to do so. Maybe i was thinking too much but i sort of felt eyes staring down at me when i was down and your clique up there. Even when i looked up the wall to see the words on it, i avoided looking at the place you were at, pretending to myself that you were invisible. Yes, i have no courage. So what? I don't want to cry in school again ok. Esp when i'm having another paper after that. Ltr screw the paper. Why take the risk right? So i didn't look(: Actually, i sort of did. HAHAHA. When we were outside the hall waiting to go in and you walked down the central stairs. I looked down, then you looked up and i pretended like i was talking to Yin Tong they all-.- Hey, the temptation to look was too irresistable ok! I took the risk after all. At least Justin kept my mind off it without knowing he sort of helped me got through it. Haha. Stupid Justin Ling, I not short hor! I got to see the seating arrangement afterall^^

Unknowingly, I've typed alot for this post alr. Mostly related to that thing that's not been solved yet and the ppl involved! I nag alotttttttt~ I think. Haha. Something made me believe stronger that most girls can't be trusted. Sry bout that, i know i'm a girl too. I'm not saying ALL girls can't be trusted but mostly. But, definitely i can trust some(: I don't judge anyone. Until, i really get to know you. But that doesn't mean i'll judge you. I still don't judge anyone. I may sound harsh and all when i'm scolding someone but that's only cause i'm venting out my anger. After that, i'll be fine, most of the time. That's why i don't have much girlfriends like how i may seem to have.

So i hang out with more guys then girls, causing ppl to misunderstand me and think that i'm flirt. Sorry lor, but that's the way i am. I act more like a boy. I srsly don't know how to clique with girls at times. And, if my boyf doesn't mind, then why you judge me when i'm not even close to you?! SORRY IF MY HANGING OUT WITH GUYS OR BEING MORE OF A TOMBOY THEN A GIRL OFFENDED YOU HOR. Like i need to explain to you-.- Geez, im going a little out of point here? Haha.

I have so many things to say but, i can't seem to rmb since i'm keeping myself busy. Oh great, i got myself through this whole day not contacting you, except in the morning. Gawwwwd, i wanna contact you badly luhs): But, yay me! I hv to thank ppl like Wensen, Kel(mond), Sbf, Siuli, Junkai, Justin, YeeTeen, Doreen and all that kept me busy by talking to me most of the time. Although i still had alone time, even when with this ppl, and started thinking again. But somehow, my day passed very quickly today cause i've been keeping myself busy and didn't check the time. In a blink of an eye, it's gonna be 10 alr. For home, i'll thank my sis(irritating! But, i love you!), my dogs, my dad for letting me make fun of him, my laptop, songs, movie, shows, my mum for disturbing me. Hehe, i'm feeling crazy now. Bet imma emo ltr. Grrrr, i don't want emo! T.T

Oh, my sis is such an ass. She got ice cream mooncakes frm gelare, her working place. When we first got it, she didn't want to let me eat. Want wait for everyone all eat tgt. So, wait lor. Then eat bit by bit. Now, she's bringing back more boxes and ask me to quickly finish up those that are still in the fridge. Oi, i not pig leh! Why do you think i skip dinner for? Cause i not hungry and no appetite lar! Tsk. Haha, stupid ass. Me love you though. I ain't gonna finish everything k, got so many lor. Give Jerry eat uhs. LOL, jk.

Oh, it's 10+ alr. Yipeeeee, i can go slp! Then i can dream and keep my mind off the thing! Oh wait. But i'll dream of the thing and the ppl involved also. Gawwwwd, everything's revolving arnd the thing and ppl. And i'll keep waking up and losing some slp then slp again then wake up again. Imy? Don't make me go crazy pls. Sch as per normal tml. Lessons. Which means, i'll definitely see you and also emoing. Guess i might not be going down for recess tml either. Contact me soon? Contradictive huh? I wanna change my blog url. But i don't know what to change to. I'll probably change it after i think of smth.

If that was your intention, then congratulations, you've got what you wanted. You successfully made me lose control of myself, my feelings, my thoughts, my emotions, my everything that i used to be in full control of. Blah, this post is long enough alr. Too long i suppose. I just had to blog out my feelings. Blog tml maybe? We'll see how. But i guess that this few posts would be more of me saying out my feelings? Ranting and all. A mixture of this and a mixture of that here and there. Might not make sense. Oh well, it's up to you whether to read anot. Bye ppl~ Hope i hv pe tml and i'll do well for phy test, although i didn't study :x (imy alot pls)

(P.S. Special thanks to JY darling for that msg! Appreciated! Thanks for cheering me up and being there for me! All the best for your 'O's! ILY! 'A Gerrard' eh?^^ You get what i mean.)